Here we are, May 16th, 2009. Spring has officially sprung! God has answered so many prayers of mine that it kinda makes me dizzy. Its hard to make decisions and themn stick by them. Especially when they seem rash and hurtfull. I have learned that when we pray for a change, no matter how large or strange it seems at the time, He will be there and offer it. It's then when I realized that no matter what it is we pray for, he WILL give it to me. It's only then when I realize that half of the time, my will is God's will. It's just hard to see how its given, sometimes.



My garden has become so much more to me than just a "garden". It is ALL my passions in one confined space. I wonder sometimes if there are other women out there that feel the same about their passions. I feel so strongly about color. Its such an important thing in my life. Affection. It could be a hug, wink, or just a phonecall. Knowing I'm on someone else's mind is a big thing for me. I love Jan. She is the biggest dream I ever prayed for. As long as I can remember, I have been praying for the kind of mother that would understand the way I feel. And, if she didn't understand or agree with the way I felt, she didnt judge me. just BELIEVED in me. Jan is my angel. I pray that when I am her age, I am half the woman she is right now.

When I am in my yard, and the sun is checking out my latest work, I feel proud and encouraged. I know how much more needs to be done, but I will always love what is done and thank God, my family and my loving husband for giving me my hearts content..